So often, I find myself between worlds. 
Sometimes it’s simply magical and sometimes it’s lonely, agitating and frustrating. 
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I know this place well, at one point I spent years within its womb. Remembering, unlearning, shedding, surrendering and now l am learning how to not only live from my body wisdom, but participate in this world through it without overwhelm. 

In these times, I keep breathing into the absolute truth that it’s in the humbling lap of the divine where core and lasting reorganization happens. This is where the Beloved is rearranging what I must show up for. 

Trusting the timeline of my heart, cultivating my patience and supporting myself through the process of my edges IS the practice. 
Because in this 'in between space' there is nothing known, only that from this ‘chaos’ innovation is birthed. 

So, if you find yourself in these spaces of initiatory challenge I want to remind you...
Breathe, don’t try to fix it but rather listen to what it has to say. Get the support you need, not to fix you but to guide you into deeper surrender when the resistance comes. There is nothing wrong with you, this is the process of awakening. It’s from this very place that your own deeper wisdom is revealed, and it is here that divine guidance can truly be felt and anchored in the world. 
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It’s not on our time but in divine time, what we CAN actively do is surrender the resistance and show up moment to moment for the transmutation unfolding!

Can we allow fierce beauty to claim us through the BETRAYAL, LOSS and ABANDONMENT of our lives?
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Maybe life takes us away from those we love the most in order to purify us into a larger perspective. 
Perhaps those whom we come to connect with, in an otherworldly way, could make us forget precisely what we are here to tend. 
Perhaps relishing in their presence too long would intoxicate us to the point of the abandonment of our becoming. 
Perhaps loving someone so much could trap us in a selfish bubble of our own needs, wants and desires. 
Perhaps we’d explode of ecstatic overwhelm into a trillion tiny fragments and never find our way back home into the wholeness of our beings. 
Perhaps the burning fires of longing are to cleanse us down to the bone with lessons of suffering and humility, only broken hearts can ever know. 
Maybe the ones who leave are the ones that may unknowingly care the most, setting us free from a choice that will lead us away from our core, and that truly we could of never made on our own. 
What if what we have come to feel and assume as betrayal, indeed can be a story of the greatest love proclamation of all. 
What if this was the experience of loss meant to invoke the true measure of our strength? A renewed invitation of faith and commitment to the life that must be lived through you?
What if we retold the story of betrayal and abandonment as necessary awakenings into becoming whole? 
What if we allowed that pain to expand us into deeper gentleness with ourselves and more compassion with the pain of others, instead of falling victim to becoming harsh or wearing masks for the sake of an illusory ‘being strong’?
What betrayal or abandonment have you experienced that yearns to be alchemized into wisdom and offered through you as the Divines’ sacred bread for the nourishment of the whole?

Grief is the wound and compassion the healer.
When we allow ourselves to acknowledge and express our grief we come across a vital key to opening our hearts. 
Coming to terms with our own grief can lead us towards more compassion for ourselves and for others. Grief comes from our very core, our system, it can shut us down and lead to the very loss of ourselves through numbing, depression, isolation and even illness. 
Knowing how to carry and channel our grief is a way of bringing to wholeness parts of us we have lost along the way. We can recover lost soul fragments. 
It’s not the load we are given, it’s how we can carry it.

We must remember GRIEF not as foreign entity and not as an outsider to be held down or caged up, but as a natural process here to reveal an evolution of our Self.
The restoration of harmony in our world depends greatly on the manner in which we approach, process and express our grief. Not only our external world but our internal landscape.
Conscious expressions of grief are healing. Lack of expression of our grief leads to repression which turns into impulses and emotions that is whats at the root of the general unhappiness and depression that we feel. It makes us feel dislocated, separate and isolated. It invites 
Dis-ease. 
Unacknowledged grief will cause us to unconsciously sabotage love, to look for outward comforts that numb is, leave us empty and in a hungry escape from the reality of our lives by trying to find relief. 
Grief is experienced differently by every person. So learning what your way is can be very liberating and self supportive. 
Communal grieving offers something that we cannot get when we grieve by ourselves. .
Through validation, acknowledgement and witnessing, communal grieving allows us to experience a level of healing that is deeply and profoundly freeing.
Each of us have a basic human right to grieve our losses and make of them beauty that honors what has come to pass.