Two rivers exist in woman, two streams of consciousness that like strands of DNA weave and inform our existence. 🕊
Red river: wild abandon, ecstasy, rebirth, initiation, desire, passion.
White river: innocence, purity, conception, delight, softness, surrender. 🕊
Emerging from the same wild void the Red River and the White River are two complimentary streams that, when in harmony, weave a woman whole.
We have embraced one and demonized the other, our work is in seeing where we have made or learned judgments that keep us from embracing both. Where we have pigeonholed our womanhood in order to stay safe or rebel against the norm.
Through this sincere inquiry we can reclaim our true inner freedom. We no longer have to pick or fit inside one role.
Observe what you judge or secretly envy in other women and this will give you clues as to what you hold back within yourself.
That which is deeply personal and shared in authenticity is a thread of universal truth.
Its resonance builds a momentum in which you unknowingly give another permission to voice theirs and the web of change strengthens. This applies to ALL issues facing our humanity today.
If you think you are above all these ‘victim stories’ and have all the answers and strategies. We congratulate you, and still this does not make it okay to tell someone else to ‘get over it’ or that their pain isn’t valid OR what about this other issue or this other suffering.
All suffering has merit and is worthy of conversation and yet, we all hold a different but similar thread in the tapestry of pain that we must honor.
The Angry Sister/ Dismissive Mother archetype runs through all of us, it’s very palpable at times like these where shifts of energy disrupt the norm. Wherever dissolution of old contracts is on the horizon, this archetype is sure to make an appearance. It’s what lured us into the ‘boys club’ with its false sense of security, of protection and acceptance. In its attempt to protect us, through its distorted filter, it will do anything to pigeon hole us into the system we know. We must not forget or underestimate its power to shape shift in order to stay alive.
This archetype too is in pain, so much so, that in order to survive it clings to a mimetic sense of safety. It may range in magnitude and expression but at its core, it is blind to its rage, it is disembodied, fragmented, deep down it feels very afraid and lonely. It has created an intricate facade of false self-empowerment, dismissing pain by addressing other issues than the one at hand. It can claim having transcended its humanity into the ‘light'. Their ‘numbing’ can be expressed as a ‘cool and collected’ superiority that actually seems alluring to many of us who yearn for stability.
This archetype thrives in those who were not given space for their vulnerability and had to stuff down their emotions and concerns. (That’s pretty much most of us!) They were not given permission, so why should you have it.
Its okay to be angry when we seem to be looping in our suffering.
Its okay that we feel so frustrated at how long the process seems to take.
Its okay to feel overwhelmed with all the injustices and pain in the world.
Its okay to be afraid.
It is not okay to attack others in their vulnerability,
Its not okay to viciously bully and call this ‘holding them to their truth’.
Its not okay to dismiss someones pain as ‘not as important as this other type of pain’.
It is not okay to make them wrong for where they are at or what they are feeling.
ALL pain is interrelated and interdependent. Its all from the same core. We all carry and hold a thread, as an individual and for the collective. Honor your thread and honor others’. All the work is the ‘good work’ when it is sincere and being done from a self responsible desire. All threads carry their much needed collective medicine.
When you feel to comment or rush someones process or share how they are not addressing this other kind of injustice…
Try practicing wondering instead of judging.
Try being present with their pain and allowing it to touch your own. What is our thread? How can we allow someone else’s pain to move us deeper into the devotion of our own?
Try heart-listening to their stories so that you may offer solace and true sisterhood.
Presence is what’s needed, true witnessing creates a safe womb space where the pain can unravel and reveal the treasure hidden inside of it.
There is nothing to fix right now, there are no action steps needed right now. That WILL come, it is inevitable. But the most delicate and tender part of the process is to be WITH it, to let it speak, to allow it to breathe through the wound and let it feel heard and safe IN the body.
What we don’t truly understand is that once we do this, the rest is a natural unfolding and byproduct.
We are in full bloom in the Age of Deception and more than ever it is imperative that we appeal to our hearts, the grounding into the earth and the listening to our inner voice of prayer. There are no shortcuts. Its important that we sloooooow down in order to truly listen beneath the screaming noise of a dying world and that we give as much attention to our inner landscape as our outer reality.
As we step up and step out, lets take the reins of our true power which is ALWAYS creative and life affirming. It is time to be bolder and rooted in the feminine principles of this awakening. To allow Shakti to lead in its sustainable, organic and innately intelligent ways.
It is time to stop being pale imitations of men and change how we perceive leadership so that it becomes more of a human undertaking which doesn’t require people to give up other vitally essential things in life.
Evolution is inevitable, the rate of evolution is not up to any ONE.
As you come to know yourself as the heroine of your life story and collect your fragmented parts, you become part of a larger journey. You discover your vital thread in the tapestry of Restoration.
We are an agent, priestesses of something that is of infinite essence. Here, all the mighty streams and rivers merge into the great ocean of Shakti herself.
- Anabel Vizcarra
Many people in the 'self realization' movement believe that its achieved by being alone, by developing ascetic practices or traveling the world solo without commitment to anyone or anything. And whilst this is important on the journey to learning to listen to the inner voice and not the noise of the world. This is just the beginning, the secret to self realization is that we are here for each other, through each other and to experience ourselves through another.
Our innate intelligence is designed for our growth through relationship. Through surrender. Through experience.
Self realization is achieved when we realize the Self seen in another. Only seeing the humanity and divinity in another can you truly embody your own.
The shadow of relationship is when you get into it to get something out of it, its filled with expectations on how they must show up, be, etc. Your expectation IS what is calling the exact opposite into your field.
The true essence and gift of relationship has everything to do with what you are willing to put into it, because these are the edges that show you who you are, this is what reflects the love you have for yourself. This is where you get to grow in courage and exercise your healthy boundaries, your devotion and your greatest love.
This is where the full spectrum of Gaias heartbeat is felt, in the expansion and contraction of relationship.
Relationship is the most important experience in order to know yourself as a whole. Intimate relationship is the highway to embodied self realization and willingness is one of the most important keys!
How do you relate to relationship?
What has been your experience?
Do you keep away from intimate relationships?
- Anabel Vizcarra
You’ve been walking politely.
Biting your tongue.
Crossing your legs.
Staying in what some call ‘your place’.
I have heard your beckoning for change.
I’ve seen your attempts.
I have tasted your tears of frustration.
Sitting with you through it all.
From a forgotten land I come,
Transversing hells and storms
to stand before you, behind you, next to you..
To tear away the veil that keeps your head
heavy and low.
Im unbraiding your hair,
untying your tongue,
untucking your wings,
and uncrossing your legs to allow the sacred flow.
Come with me dear Priestess,
dance with me this dance of heretical belonging.
Grieving ourselves into laughter,
shaking out the stiffness
as we rebirth and transform the world
through the holy rage
hidden in our thighs and in our broken hearts.
Your hips hold the key to swaying
and your body is the door to the Divine.
It is never too late and you’re never too young or too old
You are the chalice of your medicine.
You are a fucking Queen,
and your BLOOD is made of pure GOLD.
- Anabel Vizcarra
Illustration by tomahok