Does the word 'GODDESS' trigger you?
I get it, it used to trigger me too..
Until, I actually dove into it deeper and found that in order to understand what the Goddess is, you have to abandon subjectivity and open to objectivity.
The word itself is programmed to trigger us right into separation from other women and judgement into how they're choosing to live their Goddess lives or use the word. (Sister Wound trigger) But this is only on the surface and since surface makes my skin itch. Here's what I realized when I began to dig into my own discomfort with the word.
At a deeper level it's masking my own self judgement. It tells my unconscious I'm not good enough being 'just a woman' and that I have to aspire to some impossible sense of flawlessness which can only be achieved if I can afford the way a goddess dresses, eats or looks in her yoga poses. It ties my consciousness directly into an agenda of consumption and futile pursuit of perfection and since it's impossible to fulfill, it leaves me feeling like shit and alas! Another reminder that I'm just not good enough.
Here's what I know now..
We CAN be goddesses and completely messy humans too. This word triggers because it is patriarchally programmed to do so by disconnecting us from its full spectrum. You either become attached to its highjacked version which cuts off from a rooted, embodied, messy human existence or you demonize the word in order to feel or give yourself a mimetic sense of being more 'real' and raw.
Typically, your definition will reveal your own inner challenge. Which if you ask me, it's damn exciting! As it offers me a way to access more truth and harmony within myself.
So, no matter where you stand with this word, observe how you react to it and what the 'Goddess' may actually be inviting you deeper to take a look at what you judge about yourself. For Her, there is no bad publicity.
Know that the true Goddess can't be confined nor defined and can only truly be brought to life by a woman who is an embodied, human paradox. By the woman who's walked along her shadows in her descent to the Underworld, in order to ascend to Upperworld and express in the Middleworld. The woman who weaves and flows in both Red river and White river within her being.
The Goddess isn't a set of qualities, it's an experience you find within yourself, that swallows all polarity and spits it out into duality and paradox imbued with her juicy, holy saliva. As Anais Nin said: 'She's not just woman, she is a mermaid with her tail dipped in the unconscious'. And I'll add to that, she's not just divine, she's a human remembering how to love herself whole again.
Everything is sacred when you align to your birthright. Goddess. Woman. Human. Priestess. Mother. Sinner. Queen. Slave. And everything can be abused and misused.
Whatever this evokes in you, there's is no wrong or right answer. Only an inquiry and conversation waiting to come alive.
How does this make you feel?
- Anabel Vizcarra